Thick Poetry

Old Poetry

2005-11-14T09:56:00.000-06:00

No, this post is not poetry, just and introduction and explanation. I live in Nashville and have at time written a few verses. It's something I haven't really done in a long time. I am hoping that by going back and posting my old stuff here on Blogger, I will be inspired to commit pen to paper and work on some new stuff. I have a regular non-poetry Blog that can be read here. You might be wondering why the poetry is here on Blogger and not on my own site. The truth is, I wanted to keep it separate. I also wanted to have an active Blogger account. There have been many time recently that I've wanted to comment on Blogger blogs and couldn't because they require a Blogger ID. So, I'm using this....

Keep in mind that everything you see in the posts before this one was written a long time ago. They come from a time when I was living a life very different form the one I am now. It was a darker time for me, as you can see by reading them. Still, I wanted to share that part of me. So there they are. Please feel free to comment away.

Wrong Holiday

2005-11-13T21:10:00.000-06:00

I See Banana bits in my milkshake

Flushing through my sore throat worsening my headache

Down to my stomach, shiver up my back

Since I'm thinking of you, my words must lack

Most anyone else would say, "No big deal"

Why is it that I have to be bad to feel

The way I do when I think of you

Return of Untitled

2005-11-13T21:08:00.000-06:00

Repeating beats force again

Running round my brain again

Spiraling to the ground

A morose scream is the only sound

I hear

Dear

I tear

apart my life

riddled with strife

to complete the cycle

Just because it might go

to the outer limits

of the bits

of love I feel

in a world quite unreal

so surreal

so surreal

forget this existence

but I claim persistence

To keep my mind

Because what I find

is that I can't control

my soul

But I fit the mold

As I grab hold

of the one before

Untitled

2005-11-13T21:07:00.000-06:00

These wretched arms embrace the day

This taking

This giving

Leaves me sore

It shocks me the way you take so much more

My guilt is heavy

My guilt is heavy

It pulls my face down onto the floor

The simple reason that I long for your soul

Are also the ways I feel like a fool

It's so sacred

and Righteous

And your tightness

Makes you appear too cruel

The last time I saw your face

You trusted me

Even less

It burns

So deep

October harvest we never reaped

And it's over

Forever over

Your image runs like an hourglass

And it's over

It was over fast

I wish I could forget your kaleidoscope lies

And I wish I could stop sucking in my pride

The loss of face that I have suffered

Makes my world crumble

My world is crumbling

My world is crumbling

And now I long for the strength to recover

And moreover

There's dissension among the cells of my brain

Making me wonder if I am quite sane

retain

insane

I had an episode today

That reminded me of something in the way

You move

and that proves

That I must escape from you

Strive

2005-11-13T21:02:00.000-06:00

Repeating inputs inspire in vain

words mesh together in tired refrain

Blue sounds repeat with high decibels

return from a lifesong as a force of will

Take that last step

toward the light

move forever

upwards

reaching

extreme heights

murdered heart beats in excited pain

overpowered by love lost to disdain

dreams reel on from beginning to end

as time starts to warp and reality bends

all emotions are reversed to the hilt

and foundations of hatred begin to be built

Take that last step

toward the light

move forever

upwards

reaching

extreme heights

An ugly duckling is waiting to blossom

but first the swan must fall some

while breaking away from the beasts of dispair

the dream child must repent for actions unfair

Take that last step

toward the light

move forever

upwards

reaching

extreme heights

Once I Was a Sane Man

2005-11-13T21:01:00.000-06:00

Once I was a sane man

Before I saw the beast

Once I was a sane man

Until I ate the feast

Once I was a sane man

Until the coming of the bug

Once I was a sane man

But next week there came slugs

Once I was a sane man

Til I met the thing

Once I was a sane man

Til It started to sing

Once I was a sane man

But now the sky pours red

Once I was a sane man

But now I've lost my head

Knowledge

2005-11-13T21:00:00.000-06:00

Sleep seems so far away

I say,

I can't move my mind

To a different place

Where it would come easily

Because everywhere I go

You are there to make it wonder

Bring this sleep to me now

Let me know

Gina Gina Gina

2005-11-13T20:58:00.000-06:00

Gina Gina Gina

is the one that's on my mind

'cause Ginas face and Ginas hands

are things just so divine.

So every day and every night

I've thought of Gina many times

til now I think that Gina's

not the girl I usually find.

Forever in a day

2005-11-13T20:57:00.000-06:00

Shadows Dance across the wall

I can't quite see the end of the hall

The floors reach out to the door

As I fall asleep on the floor

The light sleeps on the windowpane

The colors of another

Floats off in the same

But I will return,

Forever in a day.

The trees sway in the wind

As the broken sky begins to mend

And the clouds drift to eternity

To form into what I see

The light sleeps on the windowpane

The colors of another

Floats off in the same

But I will return,

Forever in a day.

A cold face stares in the mirror

Calling for a name

But I'll return forever

to the place from where I came

The light sleeps on the windowpane

The colors of another

Floats off in the same

But I will return,

Forever in a day.

In the middle of December

2005-11-13T20:55:00.000-06:00

In the middle of December

All I can remember

Is how much I hate

Rotten carrot cake

And while my eye blinks

I only can think

Of how I feel so cold

And I'm getting so old

My thoughts start to wander

When my heart starts to flutter

How can my mind be so cruel

When it knows it rules

Dispair

2005-11-13T20:48:00.000-06:00

I sleep so tranquil

and pretend in illusion

Cursing all in height

To come to believe what's not real

Yes I believe

because of our masks

Frail human stupidity

is all I wear

But I refuse to submit

and join the rat race

Torment is unending

because of my compassion

But I must go on

with my quest for fire

in a loveless, black world